It's been forever
Yeah, yeah so it's been a while. I would say that I haven't had anything important going on my life, but that's not quite so true. I've just been tired, like real tired. Go to bed late, wake up early. I'm finished with the majority of that routine, I'm actually going to bed at a decent hour now, but it'll take me a while to catch up. The summer is over, or at least my summer. The one that we do prep for 10 months out of the year and during those 2 months of showtime pull everything together. This summer was a fun one. I don't know if I'd say it was the best I've ever had here, but it wasn't far from it.
I actually miss the days of being a counselor. I spent a lot more time outside, and had way more interaction with the kids. I like being a director, don't get me wrong, but here and there I'd like to have a little more time with the kids, and a little less time with parents who want to call everyday asking why their kids haven't written them in two days.
Now it's back to sitting in the office, looking at my window waiting for someone to walk by, or the phone to ring next. I've been waiting for some random kid to come by and knock on my window to ask a question that I've answered 10 times already, but it isn't gonna' happen. Not for another 10 months, and probably not to me again. If things go as planned, which they never do, but if they do, this was my last summer here. That's a bittersweet feeling to have. I've grown to love this place so much, the people, the family, watching these kids grow up. I've also literally grown, ready to get on with things. There's not much higher I can get in the pecking order, so maybe I ought to get out and start anew.
It seems for me that everything is happening at once. Nothing bad, it just appears that everything is coming together at a similar time. Camp being over, means that I've got about 3 more weeks to work here. I'm about to head out of the country for more than a month. I've got a wedding to go to in Monterrey which might lead to an awkward encounter (which I'm probably worrying about way too much). Then on top of that, I'm moving out of the house that I've lived in for 15 years.
Three weeks left of camp, I wonder how things are going to work out in a few months when a part of our full time staff is gone. I'm very optimistic about the running of this camp, and the future of the camp. I hope that I can be a part of it in the future, or at least be able to send, refer, or aide with the enrollment somehow. There isn't anything else that's gone on in my life that has been as good for me as camp has, I just hope that someday I can remunerate this place. I don't want to say I've lived a rough life, but I sometimes wonder how I've turned out like I have. Camp, and the people here are huge factors. I'm trying to be as noble as I can about what I say, but no words can be put together can fairly represent the importance these past seven summer have had.
I finally pulled it all together and am in the last stages of my Costa Rica planning. I'm going to be leaving in early September, and won't be back until early October. I'd probably stay longer, but there are a couple of weddings that I not only need to come back for, but really WANT to come back for. More on one of those in a bit. I've looked at going to a complete immersion program for like the last 5 years, but either couldn't afford it, or had other things going on. Now, I've got nothing else going on, and can afford to do it, so why not? I'll do 4 weeks of classes (either 4 hours a day, or 6 hours a day). I know I can't speak perfect Spanish in a month, but maybe it'll move some of the pieces I've put together over the years closer, and I'll at least be somewhat sufficient.
Well the weddings, I've got three of them in October and November. I know I've said it before, but my friends are all falling like flies. Not too much of a bad thing, it just makes me wonder if somehow behind the times. Naaa, I'm still young. One of the weddings is in Monterrey. Which is a place that I haven't been since the girl I dated for four years and I called it quits. Two camp people are getting married to each other there, and they are both mutual friends of the ex and myself. I really want to be at this wedding, because there aren't many people that I've met at camp who I actually like more than this guy, so I'm planning on being there. The awkwardness in seeing the old girlfriend is something that has been bothering me though. Surely I'm over reacting, I have a tendency to do that. It just creates a bit of a cumbersome reunion with someone I didn't think I'd see again. I'll make the best out of it though.
Now the moving. My Dad has talked about selling the place where I grew up for years. I remember coming home my Freshman year of college, and finding the drawings of the house he wanted to one day build at our ranch. It got me all excited and fired up, ready for the new place that would be coming very soon. Well days turned into months, and months to years, and now almost 6 years later it might finally happen. It's been an irritating time because we have to be out of the house only 10 days after I finished work for the summer. It's hard to pack up 15 years worth of accumulation in 10 days. Plus there is all the other stuff that I didn't get to do this summer that I want to do now, but it's all pushed to the backburner. We're moving into this little rent house in Kerrville that hopefully will just be temporary until we get a start on building out at the ranch. Like I said before though, days turn to months, and months turn to years. Hopefully that doesn't happen again...I'm excited, and cautiously optimistic on the outcome of that.
Yeah, so these are a few things on my mind, and some of the thoughts going through my head. I'm hoping that I get it all figured out in the near future, or just that everything would happen already...
I actually miss the days of being a counselor. I spent a lot more time outside, and had way more interaction with the kids. I like being a director, don't get me wrong, but here and there I'd like to have a little more time with the kids, and a little less time with parents who want to call everyday asking why their kids haven't written them in two days.
Now it's back to sitting in the office, looking at my window waiting for someone to walk by, or the phone to ring next. I've been waiting for some random kid to come by and knock on my window to ask a question that I've answered 10 times already, but it isn't gonna' happen. Not for another 10 months, and probably not to me again. If things go as planned, which they never do, but if they do, this was my last summer here. That's a bittersweet feeling to have. I've grown to love this place so much, the people, the family, watching these kids grow up. I've also literally grown, ready to get on with things. There's not much higher I can get in the pecking order, so maybe I ought to get out and start anew.
It seems for me that everything is happening at once. Nothing bad, it just appears that everything is coming together at a similar time. Camp being over, means that I've got about 3 more weeks to work here. I'm about to head out of the country for more than a month. I've got a wedding to go to in Monterrey which might lead to an awkward encounter (which I'm probably worrying about way too much). Then on top of that, I'm moving out of the house that I've lived in for 15 years.
Three weeks left of camp, I wonder how things are going to work out in a few months when a part of our full time staff is gone. I'm very optimistic about the running of this camp, and the future of the camp. I hope that I can be a part of it in the future, or at least be able to send, refer, or aide with the enrollment somehow. There isn't anything else that's gone on in my life that has been as good for me as camp has, I just hope that someday I can remunerate this place. I don't want to say I've lived a rough life, but I sometimes wonder how I've turned out like I have. Camp, and the people here are huge factors. I'm trying to be as noble as I can about what I say, but no words can be put together can fairly represent the importance these past seven summer have had.
I finally pulled it all together and am in the last stages of my Costa Rica planning. I'm going to be leaving in early September, and won't be back until early October. I'd probably stay longer, but there are a couple of weddings that I not only need to come back for, but really WANT to come back for. More on one of those in a bit. I've looked at going to a complete immersion program for like the last 5 years, but either couldn't afford it, or had other things going on. Now, I've got nothing else going on, and can afford to do it, so why not? I'll do 4 weeks of classes (either 4 hours a day, or 6 hours a day). I know I can't speak perfect Spanish in a month, but maybe it'll move some of the pieces I've put together over the years closer, and I'll at least be somewhat sufficient.
Well the weddings, I've got three of them in October and November. I know I've said it before, but my friends are all falling like flies. Not too much of a bad thing, it just makes me wonder if somehow behind the times. Naaa, I'm still young. One of the weddings is in Monterrey. Which is a place that I haven't been since the girl I dated for four years and I called it quits. Two camp people are getting married to each other there, and they are both mutual friends of the ex and myself. I really want to be at this wedding, because there aren't many people that I've met at camp who I actually like more than this guy, so I'm planning on being there. The awkwardness in seeing the old girlfriend is something that has been bothering me though. Surely I'm over reacting, I have a tendency to do that. It just creates a bit of a cumbersome reunion with someone I didn't think I'd see again. I'll make the best out of it though.
Now the moving. My Dad has talked about selling the place where I grew up for years. I remember coming home my Freshman year of college, and finding the drawings of the house he wanted to one day build at our ranch. It got me all excited and fired up, ready for the new place that would be coming very soon. Well days turned into months, and months to years, and now almost 6 years later it might finally happen. It's been an irritating time because we have to be out of the house only 10 days after I finished work for the summer. It's hard to pack up 15 years worth of accumulation in 10 days. Plus there is all the other stuff that I didn't get to do this summer that I want to do now, but it's all pushed to the backburner. We're moving into this little rent house in Kerrville that hopefully will just be temporary until we get a start on building out at the ranch. Like I said before though, days turn to months, and months turn to years. Hopefully that doesn't happen again...I'm excited, and cautiously optimistic on the outcome of that.
Yeah, so these are a few things on my mind, and some of the thoughts going through my head. I'm hoping that I get it all figured out in the near future, or just that everything would happen already...
posted by Sancho at 1:17 PM
3 Comments:
Everything will turn out for the best Sancho! :)
DANG!!!
I know how you turned out the way you did despite hardships, it is the same way that I turned out the way I did- a few people who truly love me, determiniation, and strength of character. You and I are lucky to have gone through so much and still find peace and happiness in the world.
And about that awkward encounter... you'll be fine. Good luck.
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